My Blog ~ siew hong

Last year, few friends got married –> i really happy for them because can see they found their life companion and happiness. Just too pity me cannot join and share their happiness. Coming month, there will be another two great couple marrying, once again I cant join them. This make me feel so regret to decide coming here, but nothing can be done to reverse the situation. I missed out so many great event at KL, but at the same time i also gain something from here - friendship and experience. Like people said, give and take, no perfect thing in this world. So I only can wish them from far apart. Jasmine and May going to be the prettiest bridge on their great day, BB is a beauty mom of a baby, Lee Fung going to be another charming mom for a baby, to others —> Happy Day! Happy Chinese New Year too (:P)

yesterday was in down mode, because never expected such a strict requirement imposed on me. I dont want to be involve in that area, but do I have a choice?, I think I wont have it unless I quit, rite? haih… I don wan to be end up like others, I wan to quit and just say byebye, but will I do that , wil he allow me to do that? I am going to leave tigong to decide it for me…thats the cowards’s style of working. I need to work out something…I am going to tell him that I wan to work on CD, and ask his opinion on what is his requirement on passing all the work, i just feel this "field" doesnt suit me as I think, hmmmmmmmmm… i cant say more than that…

巴基斯坦回教極端武裝分子效仿學塔利班，炸毀了亞洲最大的佛像。

據英國《每日電訊報》11日報道，近日，巴基斯坦回教極端武裝分子炸毀了亞洲最大的佛像。

這尊佛像高達23英尺（7.1公尺），七世紀開鑿，距今已有約1400年的歷史，是六年前塔利班炸毀兩座巴米揚大佛後，亞洲地區最大的石佛像。損壞佛像的行徑與塔利班如出一轍。

據悉，炸毀佛像的武裝分子效忠於巴基斯坦斯瓦特山部落首領穆拉赫-法茲魯拉，他們對這個地區實行封閉式管理。法茲魯拉一直大力宣揚聖戰，並且推崇自殺式恐怖襲擊。上周，他們曾經襲擊一市場，炸毀了數十家音像製品和化粧品商鋪。

dont worry, I really fine here. When I am over something upset me, I think I will just shout here and there , then the next day will eventually forgot what were happening. Don’t worry me too much, really thanks to u all who so r passion to read my blog and advice me accordingly. Appreciate it from bottom of my heart. Really, no joke, sometime I write the article for fun, Even if I am using the word "I" or "you",the story or the conversation might be just another created story by me…hehe, i hope one day I can come out a short novel :p, talking all about the fun thing over here. Of course, thats a lousy idea, I do not have talent at all in writing. I am happy with my daily life, but would have to miss u all…

when i am writing here, it means i do feel some emotional shock. I still persist even though I know I wont be happy, I think I will just get all these done in two years. It is not really interesting to keep me on……No motivation at all, and what were my perception slowly become obviously wrong. Just finish some work and I feel that my emotion gets domp to the bottomless well because no one understand me, and discuss with me …but i think at least u can, I will look for u when I am in doubt. It is no point to talk with him lar, everything like not knowing and always shocks me with some fun idea ky. no people do concern about your future except ur ownself. I do wish I can have a back-to-yesterday machine, it is so tired to keep all this going on and on. Anyhow, this wont happen unless some magic fall on earth - but i would rather let the magic to transform our earth to before-global-warming era. Finish bluffing, it is time to back to reality. I will remind myself- health is far most important. I can say byebye if it is too over and I dont like it anymore. No lose to me because I learn nothing, okie, except from u; OK, just let it happen naturally, and if I really dont like to work anymore, I will switch!!!!!! another 2 assignments and 1 project waiting me, besides the confusing script, tigong, pls bless me go thru it smoothly . (crossed-finger)

Thanks for your reminder - It reallys make no difference and in fact it made my life more difficult. Oh, really? is it the case? everyone seems to do something for some reasons behind, cant we do something without thinking of the usefulness of it?  even though it is different field, but everyone do have their own freedom to pick the one they like, right? This makes me more determined to be more committed to it and learn as fast and as deep as I can. Once i experience it, I will know what suit me or otherwise, dont worry for me… no one better know that except ur ownself. I would never do that the same to other people, i realized that there is meaningless to understand the mindset of something else for their certain action, because at the end we would have different perspective despite of the same education we’ve received. thats make the human kind more unique and special… anyway, to me, u are indeed a great success achiever, ur goal is clear and u have the full advantage to sail towards ur goal. as a frenz, i wish u good luck. I just wish i can have such great education opportunity like u, but time has past, and I do not have regret with it, because mistake can make oneself become more careful and vigilant to the unexpected. I will take my own time to learn and one day i believe I will reach my own goal Just a kind reminder from me, take ur own responsibility on your own role, since u are so excel,u shld be very good in organizing and time management, or u shld hire a PA? frenz , if u are reading my blog and see this setence, pls ignore all my blog content. because sometimes, I just write for no specific purpose and simply to have some fun from writing blog(even though the story is fake) :p

sometimes i fall in deep thinking, have second thought about what i am going to do…such feeling never away and keep bothers me. I believe everyone has such experience : -) . Along our life, we have to make some decision and in fact dy made quite a number in the past - that wat make us becomes us today.Despite of the fact that pros and cons often carefully judged before another decision made for the current circumstances, ironically ppl do often look back when something seems wrong;natural response just urge them to seek the explanation and so-called "solution".These solutions would never exist physically in time unless somebody has had invented the back-to-yesterday machine, and i’d see this just a way to make way to our "regret" evil. when u reading this, u may wonder y i’d like to treat the "regret" as evil. Just evil because it is harmful to us. When "regret" come, we spontaneously stop our pace and spend some time to reevaluate ourself again and see we shld let "regret" master our mindset…sometimes we win over , sometimes we lose.  When we win, we say no regret at all; this translate to the statement that we’r pleased with that decision and indeed it fit our need. However when we lose, we say abit/got lo/vry regret;similarly this translate to our own acknowledgement about our "wrong" decision once upon a time. This time "regret" come and let us feel abit unhappy and upset. it will not leave if ur heart have a room for it. We often know that it is useless to think back about the past. a wise men would definitely not to be bothered about his past and he believe he can mould his future and prove to "regret" that infact he would never be friend with "regret". To me, I dont like "regret" … what about u? (an empty space is found in my heart … will it be filled tomolo?)

Attended a health talk today, and to my surprise, I’v learned alot of "wow" from this talk. My knowledge in the fieldof health and wellness really poor because I never have interest to read those books, and cant learn the essence from it as well, my reading skills is too suck. The easiest way to grab knowledge is through attending the health talk …back to the main topic,I am going to highlight wat are the key points that U MUST KNOW …
(1) Cervical cancer is progressed from the HPV virus infection over a long period. (HPV = Human Papillomavirus).
(2) After an initail HPV infection, the progression to cervical cancer depends on the type of HPV. High risk types( HPV type 16 and 18) arae often associated with high-grade cervical cancer precursor lesions.
(3) Although most HPV infection clear without treatment in 1-2 years though our body immune response, persistent infection with high risk types of HPV (types 16,18,etc) - can lead to cervical cancer and other cancer of genital area.
(4) Estimatedly, 70% of cervical cancers due to HPV type-16 and 18.
(5) What is HPV ?
- HPV has more than 100 types.
- HPV is a common virus that infects about half of all people at some point in their lives.
- HPV infections are most common among young adults between 18-28. Then, 80% of women will infected by age 50.
(6) What brings in the HPV virus?
- genital-to-genital contact, even genital-to-skin, skin-to-skin contact are found transmitting the HPV virus.

There is a newly approved vaccine from US FDA, called Gardasil Vaccine ( for protecting againts HPV type 6,11,16,18). I’m sure u can google more info on this vaccine. They claim it as the only one approved currently. Unfortunately , this vaccine only meant for female aged 9 to 26 years old. The cost is SGD200 per dose, 3 doses required at Day1,2th Mth, 6th Mth ==> total cost is SGD600 for whole course. I believe it is also available in Malaysia. Just that its too expensive for public to have it, rite? Of course, I know nothing about this vaccine, the best person to consults from is doctor!

Another interesting fact revealed from this talk is that the well-know Pad Smear test, is not a fool proof method and yet no medical test is said to be perfect. So there is possibility that pad test do not find cervical abnormalities that actually exist ("false negative result") or even the other way round - pad test may also be "false-positive"  means that cervical cells look abnormal when they are actually healthy. So, a regular screening of pad smear will definite help u and ur doctor to reduce these "faked" result. In the talk, doctor advised for a pad smear test every 3 years, but the interval may be shorten depends on individual’s situation. Have a nice day.

I’m touched after watching the dvd of liQuanYao de Gu Shi. Ta shi wo de ou xiang.YOU zu jian, sui ran juanzi, ke si di cuie si wei le guo er fen dou. Wo xin shan de shi ta nang feng bu pa bei ren shuo shenmei, yi xin yi zi ba ziqi de yuan jian fang zu zai guo jia zeng cek shan…wo zi xiang xiang ni suo Xie Xie. bao qian, wo bu hui da zhong wen zi.

today afternoon I just notice that my wallet is not in my beg when I about to enter my lab. I check very carefully but it is still not in my bag. This time, (I just off my pc at home at 3pm), I got an email in my lab pc from student service center saying that SOMEBODY found MY WALLET. I tot it was the SGD100 that I lost few months ago. So, I hurry back to my PGP hostel and just to make sure I bring the wallet, my student card to prove my identity. Funny enough, I never tot my wallet wil get lost, Because I think back very carefully, it was still with me when in the toilet at 7.30pm yesterday, but not sure whether i bring it back from the toilet afterwards. I regret I dint went back to lab after the class, at least at that time I can make sure whether the wallet is with me.  At home, nothing was found. So, I pretty sure ppl has found my wallet - the one that I tot i left at house - but it really get lost since yesterday. MY GOODNESS, I dint even knew it was lost !!! with all the hopes, I go to YIH by bus, wasted my half hour from school-pgp-YIH, I finally got my wallet back. The first thing I do is to check whether all my cards inside, luckily, to my memory , no one lost. But my heart DOMB when I see my dollar notes gone. One more time, my heart gets broken — why my wallet is not returned in fullness??? I almost cried out at that moment, but still hav to control my emotion - I asked them, can I have the details of the person who found my wallet - I would like to thank her and ask where she has found it? To my surprise, they never keep the details of the person who found it !!! Hey, at least I need to know where the bloody wallet was found , rite… But I dont think they can do much. I also wan to go OED to ask them check the viewcam for me. But would this help? the thief sure has taken the money inside the toilet, and I stil not sure where i drop it. I really feel dissapointed with this kind of society. Even girls, also so greedy and not honest as I thought. I really hate the one who steal my money, and she will pay for what she did yesterday - 23rg August 2007. She will get nightmare everyday, she will get sick, and she will lost more money one day…It is not good to curse people, I dint wan to do that, But I really angry about this. Because IF i lost it in a ladies restroom, the person who found it will definitely a student or a cleaner. so, nowadays I know wats d moral value being instilled in the students’ education……I talked so much nonsense , sure u will scold me that I shld be the one who be blamed off because I dint take care my property well. YES. I hope my mind wil get sharper, and start from today, I will chain all my belonging with me. not letting them any chance to be away from me. A lesson of SGD 100 + 70 = RM350 already let me feel very painful and even bleeding, I swear I wont let myself to get hurt anymore! Even there is a chance for me to get such money from other ppl’s wallet, I also WONT DO THAT because I dun wan ppl to get hurt. My principle is always return those belongings to the owner, it is a "badwill" to keep it as urs… ppl say i’m stupid, I will tell them wat u doing, the god or tigong is watching and recording down into a booklet. When u die, it is the time to pay for wat u owe…